Grasskitten

So, as stated in my previous journal, http://grasskitten.deviantart.com/journal/39279436/ , things are shitty, and money is hard. I know that EVERYONE is having a hard time with money, but we've lost about $2000 in the last week, because of my grandmother, and shit head thieves and "friends". Mom isn't letting on how hard it is, but if I could at least get enough money to help her make it so her room doesn't flood, I'd be really happy. I don't know how much it'll cost. But anything will help. And I am prepared to whore myself out to get it. I am doing comissions, I know my art isn't the best. But hopefully it is cheap enough to make it worth

So I am surprised it took so long to settle it back in. I was actually happy for a long time. But this year is trying really hard to be the biggest dick to me that it can be. I am real down trodden right now, and I am going back to my dark place I have been fighting tooth and nail to get out of. Silly little masochistic thoughts keep crawling back into my brain like pincher bugs. Just in this week, well, I suppose it is last week, several really shitty things happened. First of which, is the most upsetting. The man we paid to help us fix the backyard stopped showing up, he took out money, and then didn't finish the job he said he was going

I haven't had a good rant on DA for a while. And now I feel like I should. My back hurts real bad. My grandma really fucked everything up. Did she have to do this so close to my birthday? I have been so busy, that the day I wait for all year, is just an inconvenience to me. I don't want to have a birthday this month. It just bunches up everyone's schedules, and I know that because we are going out of town, mom will be worried and tense. Mom has been really harsh to me lately. I know that it's only like this because  she's stressed. But she doesn't seem to understand just what I am doing for her. Not only am I her shrink, listening to every